Change

I love to write. I used to blog a whole lot more, but of course that was before motherhood. And wow! Do those days with a little one fly by!

This blog is filled with so many memories and thoughts. And it is a huge reminder of the amazing times I was able to have in with The Lord in my 20's as God wanted me to himself, though I was begging him to be a wife. He saved me for marriage in my 30's.

A wise woman in a prayer group I used to attend once told me to really enjoy my time with the Lord before marriage and kids. She had four children and at the time, I would have given just about anything to be in her shoes instead of in the single, unattached state I lived in.

Her words were full of so much wisdom! It is much more difficult to find time to spend with the Lord as I used to! No more trips to the park all afternoon, or even taking a half hour break during my work day to sit and in the sunshine with my Bible alone with the Lord. I know I did not fully appreciate what I had when I was in the midst of those days.

Now I have a cute little alarm clock who wakes me up with a sweet cheerful little voice each morning. Or if I wake before him, I lat in bed and go over my day with the Lord. My shower time, though so much shorter now than when I was single is my worship time! And I covet every precious moment of it with The Lord!

My "work day" doesn't have a set start or end time, and is all subject to the needs of my family. Being a wife is the biggest ministry a woman could ever have! It can be a lot of work, but it is so worth it! And I need The Lord like never before for these uncharted waters as a young wife and mother. And those "lunch breaks" I used to take with The Lord are probably even more important now than ever before! Now they look like a Joyce Meyer teaching video on Youtube during nap time.

It has been good for me to rediscover this blog and remember where God has taken me, and to also be reminded that I am not hanging out in space now, but this as a wife and mother in a supportive role has just as much importance as in the last when I was a new wife and spent my days advocating for foster children.

I am thankful for the place I am in. I wouldn't say I have arrived. I am not satisfied with life just as it is, though I do have peace. Still, I can be a better wife, a better mother and most importantly, a better daughter to my heavenly father.

I suppose at times I will still feel like I am chasing the wind until I am in a place where I am constantly, passionately seeking God. And when I am at that place, it just makes me want to seek more and more.

Perhaps it is time to change up my approach,