I was having kind of a hard weekend. I was psychically not feeling well Saturday, as I woke up with a headache that refused to leave all day. I was busy all day and though I craved a nap, I had no time. I prayed a few times, but was lacking authority and felt helpless as doubts about who I am crept in. I was wanting to hear from someone I care about very much, and never did. I began to question weather I ever would again, and then began to question just about everything, as I started to feel sorry for myself.
I was meeting some friends to go to a church service in the evening, and I knew that the fact that the headache got way worse an hour before I needed to leave, was spiritual warfare. I prayed and was determined that the enemy not win this round! Finally as I was driving to this church, the pain eased up and I began to praise God, and was able to pray away the rest of the pain. The worship was good, and the fellowship with some friends after was very nice. But I still was not feeling great, emotionally.
It was not God I was questioning, but everything else. Even things I know for sure are in his plan for my future. And it did not hit me until tonight that I had been the target of the enemy's attacks all weekend. As soon as I realized this, the fear and doubt no longer would stick! In fact, I was struck with a boldness to see some truth that fear had prevented me from seeking up to this point.
Ephesians 6:12 "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
I know how this goes. Good overcomes evil. I'm on the right team, I just need to go back to the instruction manual (aka the Bible) more often!
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