I am so blessed, and I have no room to complain. I wouldn't anyway, at least not publicly. But I would like to invite those who are with me on desiring so much more, to pray for God to show up and move. I have such a longing for him to move in me. What He did for me and my faith over the summer was so amazing. So unlike any place I had ever been with him before. And now that that season is over I want to keep moving forward to the next season, and the one after that! There is so much life to be lived and so many people to share truth with. My deepest desire is to be used by Christ.
I have died to most of my dreams, but a few remain in the backdrop of my mind. I believe that in time, God will do these things in my life, but he has placed me in this season for his glory and I have some things to do here. And here is about the best place I have ever been. And above my own dreams, I truly desire what God has for me. He has proven time and time again that he knows me so well and what he desires for my life truly is so much greater than anything I could ask or imagine.
And yes, I do have hard days sometimes, as I see those I love living some aspects of life I am still waiting on God to work out in my own life. But the thing about waiting on God is that you are actively pursuing him, just as a hunter stands in wait, ready and expectant. God never changes. His plans for the lives of his children are always for the greatest good. And the lessons I have learned as I wait on God have been so transforming, and would not have been fully learned had I had everything I thought I needed, when I thought I should have them, like so many I know received.
The truth is that God is way more amazing then our human mentality could even being to understand. His mercy goes beyond all understanding as well. And the best truth about following God is that regardless of my circumstances, he never changes. His plans for me always remain the same. I cannot imagine trying to do life without Jesus, and I praise God I never had to try!
