My Valentine

I only want Jesus. No other man could satisfy me the way he does. And I find myself wishing that he were walking the earth, looking for a wife, and that he would find me. Well I am sure he could find more deserving women. But I so badly want to connect with him on the most intimate level. I have been praying for a man who is the closest to Jesus of any. But we are all fallen, and I am certainly not without sin. If it were not for the fact that God created me to want to be physically close and intimate with a husband, I would be so filled with joy to think of only Jesus and me forever. But for this season, he is mine and I am his.

But he is all I am thinking about at this time. I want to be single right now. I want this time to just be for me and my savior. I want so badly to grow so much closer to my God, right now while I do not have the distractions that married mothers have. I have the freedom in my life right now for it to just be me and my Jesus. And I am so in love with him. And I find myself falling deeper and deeper each day. It's just so amazing to me. I desire Jesus to walk with me and talk with me as though he were here in the flesh. I so wish that he would be here with me in the flesh.

And so I claim Jesus as my Valentine. For now and forever. Only he knows if there will ever be another love in my life. But I will praise him and love him as long as I have breath in me. He is what I need. And truly, none of my needs are unmet.