Ministry Moving Forward

I have been struggling with some things lately. I guess that is evident from my writing. I thought my season of questioning was over, but it doesn't seem to be. I'm better than I was last week. I just got an update from a friend I have been praying for, and though some specific prayer has yet to be answered, she shared with me a lot of little answers, and I am so excited and encouraged! Yes, there are still some big things to pray for, for my friend, but God is faithful and he will come through.

It is such encouragement today. Last night I met with some of my praying friends, and part of our time was spent praying for our heart's cry to God. After our meeting we were talking a bit and a friend and were talking of some answered prayer. I knew I got an answer last week for something we prayed for, but I wasn't sure what we had prayed and what it was answering. As I was talking with this friend she said that she felt there was something that God wanted to me to partner with him in, for this season of my singleness. I got in my car, and excitedly said, "God, what are we going to do?"

I met with a mentor yesterday and after we talked a while, she asked me what God has been saying to me, because usually I will mention a few answers as we talk. I could only think of one situation, when I was in church listening to missionaries from Mission On The Move talk about what they do in Mexico, and that they needed help. I asked God if he wanted me to go, and I heard a quick "no." What then, God? They have a new project in Nakuru Kenya, and I have been in that city when I was in Kenya. I prayed about that, but Kenya is not on my heart like Liberia is.

I'm trying to do all I can to seek God and find my way. A friend of mine just confessed to me the other day that she thinks she still has some learning to do. I have realized this some time ago, and since we both have yet to hit 30, I guess it is good we realize this now. My trying now includes a Bible study on how to live a praying life with some vital prayer group time, leading a Bible study on James (by my favorite Bible teacher Beth Moore!) and an accountability group with a few friends, as well as other ministry with my youth Wednesday evening and Thursday morning, and church Saturday and Sunday. Thursdays will be filled once school beings. I am more focused on the growing at the moment, but the other ministries are great too. Maybe I'm crazy to be involved in so much, but I have the time now, and I seek to serve God with my life.

I may not have the great house or the wonderful husband, but I am living my life the way I have wanted to for some time, intentionally setting myself up to grow spiritually and emotionally and connect with others, and trying to be in a position to let God to use me as he desires. This is all good stuff! I cannot do it all on my own. I try but I fall.  Being in a Bible study and prayer group have been one of the best things I have done to grow closer to God and to grow as a person. We all grow together and learn from each other. It has been so rewarding and helpful through some darker seasons. I wish I would have joined a Bible study much sooner. There is just something about studying God's word with other believers and having the accountability and support as life comes at you.