Life is good right now, but I would love for it to be great. I am so ready for some great! I still long for adventure. I realize and accept that at best, a good career is still filled with stuff that just has to get done. Life is enjoyable, but I long for it to be amazing, or at least to just spend it with someone who makes it more exciting.
I'm not sure what I want. I'm not even sure what to pray for. I find myself praying for my friends more than I pray for myself. I am totally dedicated to praying for two friends right now and the situations they are in. That God would just transform them and remind them of the joy of his salvation and bless them. They come to mind throughout my day and I feel like I am always praying for them. I want God to move so badly at times, just so I can pray for other things! And it makes me wish I had someone praying for me like that.
God, what are you doing with me?
My sister and I took my mom to the MWS Amy Grant concert last week. We all had such a great time. It was the music I grew up listening to, and it brought back some memories. Amy Grant's music was often playing on records in my house when I was really young, and when I got my little battery operated mini boom box, I would play my Amy Grant cassette tape over and over again, and sing along. I remember sitting in a tree in on my grandparents farm, singing along to Amy Grant on my little white boom box. I even tried out for the talent show at my elementary school to an Amy Grant song. Such memories. :) And Michael W. Smith was one of my favorites as I got a little older. You kind of had to like one if you liked the other. Their music was often intertwined, and they would sing on each others albums. I remember listening to MWS on my Sports Walkman on the plane as we were traveling to Florida when I was in elementary school.
Anyway, their music reminded me a lot about my friends. The good and the bad. The hard and the happy. It's all part of life, and doing life with like-minded people. Songs I knew as a child and teen had new meaning with ten more years of life behind me. It was a good reminder of what God wants for us. Of struggles, and how we are there for each other. I pulled out my old MWS cd's and have been listening to them today. They remind me to persevere and keep seeking God.
No, the road is not too difficult right now, but the questions in my head keep me on my toes. I'm not sure what I want for life anymore, but I do know that I don't want to spend it alone. And really, I'm no longer concerned as to what I'll be doing for the next 30+ years of my life, because I know that if, IF I learn to surrender it to God, I'll be set. I have discovered there is a lot I could be content doing. He has carried me this far, and I know he will continue to be faithful, even when I try to mess it all up.
You are a woman of great faith Laura. Sometimes we are in a hurry to get to where we think we should be.When actually we have learned its God's timing not ours.
ReplyDeleteI felt called to Africa back in 1988 and it was 2010 before it happened. but as I look back I see the planning and things God took me through in order to be where I am today.
so I pray that God will wrap His loving arms around you and hold you close to Him so you know without a doubt that He is your all first and foremost.Then let God walk you through the rest on His timing.
I love you very much I think of you really like one of my grand kids,so I do not take my prayers lightly sweetie. love you Grandmama
Hi, I just stumbled upon your blog and got acquainted with your profile. You and I have some things in common. I have worked in both South America and Africa with missions.
ReplyDeleteBless you for your heart's search for God's place for you. May He lead you slowly, steady, and surely! (Love that Bible verse!)
Linda