This Year

January is more than half over at this point, but I do have a few thoughts for a new year.

So often as I pray it seems like God answers with "just trust me," or "don't you want my best?" This was really frustrating at first, but I have come to realize that I have no other good option at this point but to trust that God is working on what comes next, and lean not on my own understanding. My future belongs to him, and I know it will be a blessed one.

Where I am today is totally not my plan, but I have to believe (and do see it sometimes) that His plan is better than my own. And I do expect great blessing this year. I expect conflict and struggle, but I expect God will help me have victory as he sees fit, and at least peace in all situations.

I expect to grow close to God this year and for him to fill my cup to overflowing. Unlike other years, I'm not sure I'm ready for some of the desires of my heart to come to fruition. I would be surprised if marriage was part of God's plan this year, or in the next two, but I do know that whatever happens, God has a plan. His is a plan I have learned to want over my own.