I have just about finished the first of a very full week in my new schedule. I love it! Busy is not bad. I have another thing or two to check off my "list" and that feels great. I am further amazed at how God showed up this week, out of the blue, in both expected and unexpected moments.

This desire, the deep and nagging one has somehow found rest within me. My soul is at rest after being happily satisfied (though not yet with what I requested). I'm not really sure what I want anymore for myself other than to be in God's will. That is enough. Maybe more than enough. And now I have this audience that has become my responsibility to teach. It is a huge responsibility, and one I would never even attempt if God wasn't on my side. But I know if I am open, he will fill in where I am lacking. I am believing he will show up.

I'm on a spiritual high right now, and I just want to enjoy it. I have been failed and broken by a few who should have had my back. I realize just how deep the wounds were now that I am being mentored by some amazing godly people who are spiritually mature enough to be above the dysfunction I once faced in a few relationships that looked good from the outside, but made me feel insignificant and unworthy no matter what I did. The best news is that God is on my side, and has pulled me from the mud and mire. I continue to "pray always and never lose heart" (Luke 18:1) for those who have not done right by me, and I pray that I will not cause pain.

I serve a loving God. His blessings are enormous to those who follow his ways. I have learned a great lesson in the last few weeks. To Believe in God and to Believe God are different things. Pray often, as though you are expecting God to move. Believe and he will answer you. He has been speaking to me a lot lately and blessing me like crazy. He is taking care of needs I have long ago prayed for. I am very honored and humbled that He would use someone like me.