I went on a safari and visited a school and orphanage yesterday. That's kind of a strange combination, I know. Kenya has been a good time, but I clearly know it's just for a time. It's a pretty cool place, but I would rather go back to Liberia, or somewhere new.
As I was wondering around this amazing US funded school yesterday, I was overwhelmed and excited at the same time. Why do I keep looking, I wondered? I am most fulfilled when I am with children, caring for them and meeting their needs. Why has this been such a struggle to discover? I held the hand of 7 year old Stacy as she showed me around her school. Such a beautiful child, and she was so proud that I choose her. Her smile made my day and I almost cried when I realized she is the kind of child I want to know.
If I was already married and a mother, I would have found my calling, but that is not my reality. I am yet unsure of what I will come home to and what type of job God has for me. I want it so badly, but I have not found it yet. I pray I will find it soon. I leave Kenya in 6 days. I'll be glad to rest and recoup by the pool for a few days, but then I have to do something! I need that paying job! I'm trusting God will provide it soon.
I just can't go too long without a child in my arms. I didn't realize how much I missed it until I came here. I have been so busy and not really missed my nursery job, and my little Mimi, but I sure do miss the babies! Liberia, I miss your babies too!
The things God brings my way!
Laura
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