The chatter of children is going on in the next room. I have spent the last two weeks playing mom to a family with 14 children. I didn't even realize they had that many til I was talking with the oldest a few days ago. I just knew they had a lot of kids, and not all of them still lived at home. I am glad I could help as their mother was away, but am just as glad as the kids that mommy gets home tonight. I miss her too! And I'm glad we will have a day together to talk before I leave.
But I have really enjoyed homeschooling 6 of the kids, as I have been here. I better understand and appreciate the homeschool lifestyle now. I wasn't sure if I could do it, or would want to, but now (whenever I do have children) I hope to homeschool them. This family had a friend from out of town visiting as I have been here, to help them with the family business. This homeschooled young man was quite a gentleman. I was so impressed with him. I was shocked in a way by his chivalrous ways. I wondered at first why he kept lingering behind me on a walk. It took me awhile to realize he was opperating under the rule of ladies first! That is kind of sad, I know. And I was even surprised at how much I appreciated that he was that way. He was a true southern gentleman. I would love to know more like him.
At one time in my life I wanted to have my own big family. Now, I'm not so sure! It also makes me feel like my own family, with 7 kids and a foster baby, is small... The first 4 of us are adults. The three boys and the baby are the "kids." I miss that baby!
Life is so full right now. I keep reminding myself that I prayed for this. I'm not complaining, but I do miss the days when I could get away and spend some time with God at that little pond, I call Grace. I knew those days would be short lived. It was great while it lasted, and God and I talked through a lot there.
My desire to seek God and learn is only growing. I can't get enough! And it has me questioning where I am in life and who I want to seek out and learn from. Even what kind of church I go to. I don't seem to get a whole lot out of church lately. I have been to quite a few in the last few months, as I have been in different places, and I have yet to find one where I really feel challenged. But God is challenging me. I am growing so much in my faith now, and at the same time I am having all these adventures. I am hardly making any money, I don't have a stable job, and I am traveling. But I am really enjoying life right now!
Now the house is quiet. The kids have gone up to bed. This must be the time all mothers look forward to. Too bad I'm too tired to really enjoy it. Oh well! I leave Buffalo for Indiana tomorrow night. Then I will be home for a few days before I leave for Kenya. Maybe I'll get some time to sleep then, between packing and spending time with family and friends. So much to do! And I pray I will come back and get that ministry job with a paycheck that I feel God has for me. I just have no idea what I will be doing or where I will be.
Life can be a crazy thing. God is answering some of my prayers loud and clear. It's so cool! I love this. And I get to go to Africa in less than a week! I'm so excited to see what Kenya will teach me. I feel so alive. This feels so right. Life is good!
Laura
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